no more fucking excuses
i have no money to spend on food so obviously i shouldn't be buying it every chance i get
i should be starving right now
i should be spending my money on rent and gas
it's ridiculous
my life is very different than it was just a few months ago... i'm single and enjoying it way too much, but i go out too often and end up eating anything at all.
i need order again and a schedule. it shouldn't be this hard to get it right, i've done this many times before.
i think i'm gonna try the lemonade diet again, just to have some kind of starting point that feels like i'm working towards a goal.
i need to eat the same exact thing every day. i need to know the exact number of calories. i need it to matter more than anything else in the world.
