6

yikes i haven't posted in 5 days...

this weekend wasn't very good (sister's bday) but i'm ready to get back on track. i need to go grocery shopping again because i don't know what i'll do without my diet pepsi and salad...

today someone called me skinny (: wow that was nice...

of course i shrugged it off and came home and glared at the fat no one else sees apparently.

it's midnight and i'm pretty tired for the first time at such an early hour. frequently i don't go to bed until 3am or so. but i'm hoping to get to sleep soon so i can wake up with a good amount of time before class and maybe even do my grocery shopping if i get up early enough.

if only my roommate would go to bed and stop making dinner at midnight. come on. midnight. i swear, for "trying to get in shape" she knows nothing about the way it works.

anywayy... here's my count for the day. it's pretty high because it was my boyfriend's only day back in town from touring and we went out to sushi. i did have the lowest-cal roll i could find though, so not too too bad...

b - 0

l - 690

d - 535

ex: -140

total: 845

5

i woke up so sick today and i have no idea how it happened...

i was sweating and hot but my room was a normal temperature. i threw off my covers but it didn't help and i eventually had to crawl to the floor and lay in a fetal position to cool down. but by the time i cooled down my sweat had cooled too and i was freezing cold... i went back in bed and the whole process began again - burning hot, freezing cold, all the while my stomach was upset and i felt so weak and just bad all over.

somehow i managed to get comfortable enough to go back to sleep and i just woke up around 2pm. i'm still not feeling well at all, but definitely better than before.

i really don't know what caused this and what i can do about it. i have class in a couple hours and i was actually planning on getting some errands done today, but that's not gonna happen. i'm not really hungry but i feel like maybe i should eat something just to get back to normal...?

nothing sounds very appetizing right now though...

4

yesterday was really good for restricting! I can't believe I did so well considering I was home all day! but it got really late and i wasn't tired at all and had a big day today so i thought i'd treat myself to some - nearly an entire bottle - wine (:

b - 0

l - 230

d - 253 (the wine)

total: 483

today wasn't as good, but i was super busy and needed the energy

b - 100

l - 190

d - 290

total: 580

still haven't been to the gym yet, i guess i'm still too lazy /: and i need to figure out my scale situation pretty soon...

other than that my life is uneventful. no one knows i'm dieting except a couple guy friends who think i'm joking about it (to put them off the trail! haha!) and no one has invited me out to lunch, so it's all good!

damn, this is easy. (finally)

3

so today marked the start of my beginning

i know how ridiculously late i am from the time most people begin ( the first of the year ) but today was the first day that my bf's away for a month

it was also my first day back to classes and on that end it was pretty uneventful

so i went grocery shopping and bought rice cakes, tuna, 45 cal/slice bread, diet soda, and prepackaged salads.

today i restricted quite a lot more than i have in a long time and in these late hours it's getting pretty tough. i had planned on going to the gym at my complex, but i had a meeting that ran really late and the gym closed. ): so i'm going to try to do a few floor exercises before bed.

also, my damn scale isn't working. it might need a new battery but it's not even that old!! can disuse cause it to die ? ? ugh it's really annoying. i'll just have to find reason to use the scale at the gym on campus or something goddamnit this is a serious issue haha

day one of my new start!

b - 0

l - 85

d - 210

total: 295