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two meals + desserts

i know that christmas is one of those days that "doesn't count" but how many of those do i have?

tomorrow is holiday feast part three with more family and i'm counting down the hours until i'm free from it all ...

anyway, let me do some quick housekeeping:

1. thank you to everyone who left comments! it feels really awesome to know that you're still here! i'm finally back and i can be here for you too! (: it's going to take me a while to catch back up to speed on everyone's lives, but i promise i will do it! if you're so inclined, comment on this post and i'll check up on you! i don't want to leave anyone out in case i'm not following you for whatever reason!

2. a quick summary of my life at the moment for those interested:

- i'll be graduating next june but taking more classes afterward to fulfill my minor

- my boyfriend is the same one i had before i left this blog

- he'll be touring with a new band for the next three months across the country

- during the month of january i'll be making weekly trips with my mom to her hospital which is about four hours away from her house ( ugh fast food ... )

- i've put modeling on hold while i figure out this weight situation ...

- i'm unemployed and quickly burning through my savings (ouch)

i'm really ready to start dieting as soon as i can. i'm already researching diet pills and foods and workouts and gym clothes that i can spend any christmas money i have on. i'm excited about this. at 1am the morning after christmas i'm excited to finally get my shit together. today marks a new beginning, and the beginning will be awful as i make the transition back to disordered-type eating.

merry christmas and happy holidays to everyone! i wish you all the best and i'll see you on the other side!